휘말리 듯 짊어지게 된 생존본능
애정을 갈망하며 불평불만
구질구질 어떻게든 살아갑니다
어줍잖게 내새우는 정의 self-murder
스스로를 용서하기엔 나의 어줍잖은 정의가
You can not run away from this forever
We, murderers
채워야할 욕망은 지옥만큼 깊어
아무리 고귀하신 당신이라 해도 결국에는 스스로의 노예
인간으로 태어난걸 원망하세요
항상 필요 이상을 바래왔잖아
내 왼팔을 봐
스스로를 사랑할 수 있어? 세상이 아름답게 보여?
천진난만하게 살육하며 만족하는 온실속의 버러지
혼자서만 떳떳할 샘이야?
살인자
스스로를 용서하기엔 나의 어줍잖은 정의가
You can not run away from this forever
We, murderers
I can not run away from this forever
Mass suicide or damnation
오늘도 미소 지을 수 있는건
스스로를 잊고 망각의 일부분이 되는 것
썩은 아침 해에게 인사를 건네
시체의 산 위에서 말해 살아있어서 다행이라고
Mass suicide
生不異殺 殺不異生 苦卽是喜 喜卽是苦
감은 눈꺼풀의 얇은 막을 비추며 말해줄게
네 하루를 밝히는 저 빛이 또 누군가에게 깊은 그림자를 내려 앉힌다는걸
순진무구한 웃음을 띄우고 모든걸 잊은채
네 품 안에 잠들면 돼?
세상 그 모든 절망 얼싸안고 모두의 악을 들춰
전부 틀렸어 그냥 집단자살
너를 용서하기에 나는 나 자신을 너무 혐오해
사실은 사랑하고 싶은 저 풍경이
너무나 잔혹하지만 아름다워서
무해한 말로 치장한 소박한 행복
너를 위한거야, 저 모든 아비규환이
자, 음미해 봐
저 모든 삶의 고통을
너를 위한거야
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Dichotomy
I am disgusted at myself
Even though I am broken somewhere
I feel the muddy guilt
Morals that I wouldn’t have had in the womb, self-murder
Carrying the survival instinct on my back, I am swept away
Complaining while craving love
Somehow continuing this low life
Laughably claiming justice, self-murder
To forgive myself, my laughable justice is…
You can not run away from this forever
We, murderers
Desire to be filled, it’s deep as hell
No matter how noble you are, you are the slave of your own self in the end
Resent that you’re born human
You’ve always wanted more than enough
Look at my left arm
Can you love yourself? Do you find the world beautiful?
Sweet summer garbage, being satisfied while slaughtering naively
Were you thinking to be innocent alone?
Murderer
To forgive myself, my laughable justice is…
You can not run away from this forever
We, murderers
I can not run away from this forever
Mass suicide or damnation
That I can smile again today is that I forget myself and become part of the oblivion
Say hello to the rotten morning sun
Say it on the mountain of corpses, that you’re happy to be alive
Mass suicide
生不異殺 殺不異生 苦卽是喜 喜卽是苦
I will tell you by lighting up the thin layer of a closed eyelid
That light shining on your day, lays also a deep shadow on someone else
Putting an innocent smile on my face, forgetting everything
I can just fall asleep in your arms?
Embrace all the despair in this world and uncover everyone’s evil
It’s all wrong, just mass suicide
To forgive you, I despise myself too much
That scenery I actually want to love is so cruel, but beautiful
Small happiness decorated with harmless words
It’s for you, all that pandemonium
I never liked the screaming vocals of black metal... HOWEVER, this album changed that. It's blackgaze with a touch of J-pop into it, and it's one of the most pleasent combination. The lyrics are disjointed and abstract but are meaningful, lots to deconstruct here. Sudis___